Since September of 2010, I haven’t felt like myself. Ever.
Towards the end of September of 2010, I meditated for the very first time. THE very first time.
I must have spent well over an hour doing it.
I was in my room, with a dim light on & Erykah Badu playing. I was sitting on my bed with my legs crossed & back up against the wall.
I began to repeat mantras & only focus on love. It was hard to get going at first, but I felt the energy coming in, more & more with every breath.
Then, it happened.
As the song “Out My Mind, Just In Time” was playing, it got to a part where Erykah sings “Oh, I……. Oh, I…….Oh, I……” My breaths were synchronized so that I inhaled on her Oh’s, and her Oh’s started to sound like OM’s, which triggered my third eye, since that is the mantra for that chakra.
That was it. Ajna was awakened. My third eye chakra began to expand & expand, until I got that “high” feeling. You know, that high people talk about; the one that you can feel when you get high off of weed or something. That high. I felt so light. I felt like I was floating (I soon realized that I was actually levitating).
It was amazing.
But then, it happened.
A couple of days later, I started to get this intense pressure in the head. I had no idea why I was getting it. I started to see several doctors, but they couldn’t find anything. I did some research on the chakras, & I learned that the third eye chakra is associated with the pineal gland. The pineal gland is a dormant gland located in the center of the brain. Once activated, the gland begins to decalcify (remove its toxins), and thus creates a pressure inside the head.
Many websites I found said that the pressure should go away within a few days. So I felt relieved.
But here’s the thing: it didn’t go away. Even to this day, I still have the head pressure.
This sent me into a spiraling depression, because the pressure affected my daily life. I just didn’t feel like myself at all. I felt isolated, because no one was in my situation, and no one could help me.
There were times when the pressure scared me. I got to a point where I was having thoughts of death every day. I never thought of killing myself, I just had the feeling that I was nearing my death.
Things were so hard for me on the inside. I became so unstable.
But then, things started to change.
The head pressure also sent me into a time of great evolution. I started to rethink & reevaluate my life. My views on God changed. My views on religion & spirituality changed. My views on people changed. My views on music changed. I started to develop deep insight in every aspect of my life. My mind started to expand. I became more conscious of things. I began to listen more than I spoke. My intuition strengthened. I began to see & feel people’s auras. My Qi began to rise to new heights. My love became stronger & more divine. My scariest memories turned into the most beautiful.
It was then that I started to appreciate what happened to me. I realized I was a chosen one. I achieved a level of awareness that most will never achieve. I started to love life again and appreciate the gift I was given.
& one by one, my other chakras began to open, my third eye, heart, & solar plexus being the strongest ones.
Lately, I’ve been doing my research on 2012, & I came across this subject that I think applies to me:
Ascension is when your body shifts into higher vibrations. When your body does that, it starts to use parts that were usually dormant, and your DNA strands expand to their full capacities.
The shift in vibrations manifests many physical & mental symptoms, including loneliness, loss of enthusiasm, detachment from friends & family, neurological symptoms (buzzing, prickly feelings), head pressure, becoming more sensitive to things, etc. (read more here: http://humanityhealing.net/wp-content/uploads/2010/06/Ascension-Stimulus-Package.pdf)
& I have had ALL of those symptoms.
The thing is, both the ancient Egyptians & Mayans predicted a paradigm shift on December 21, 2012. We’re shifting into the Age of Aquarius. As the Earth shifts into the Photon Belt, it will receive the divine light that will reconnect us with our higher selves, & those who will make it are already feeling that happen. I’m feeling it happening. We’re shifting into higher dimensions. The planet is being returned to those who truly care about it. We’re coming out of the Age of Pisces - an age filled with fear & confusion.
Love is on the way, y’all. Love is on the way.